Monday, November 29, 2010

November Craziness!

Oh my old blog! It's been a loooong time since my last post!
Well, my life has changed a little bit and now I live in another country so I'll try to write in English! Lol, let's see how's that going to work... So excuse my grammar!

I have so much stuff and nothing going on at the same time, lol but my main reason of having a blog was because my psychologist recommended that I should write to get stuff out so I don't explode and kill everybody (that was in 2005)... Right now I feel I want to explode but amazingly enough I don't want to kill anybody (maybe make some suffer, but that's it) =P

I really don't care if anybody read this or not because this is my life, my world... But I know I have some curious friends, lol... So everybody feel free to leave a comment, you know how it is...

Ufff! I don't even know where to start! A lot lot lot weird, strange things happen to me all the time, but not so often one another... This month has been so long and cruuuuazy!

"I said ooh girl
Shock me like an electric eel
Baby girl
Turn me on with your electric feel"


Ok, I guess from day 1, right? So November 1st my dear old friend called and gave me the spark I was looking for to start thinking about moving from Orlando cuz I can't stand it anymore... Seriously, I really need a change, cuz this monotony is driving crazy... So I can't stop daydreaming about moving since then!

When you are not looking to be with someone they all rain at the same time, I don't know why... Hahaha I can sing "It's raining men, hallelujah, It's raining men! Amen!" NOT, lol, gayest song EVER! When you don't want anybody they all want to be with you at the same time, I wonder if the reason for that has to do with attitude or aura or something like that? Cuz I really don't understand... Ahh one more enigma of life...

One day I went to Pacsun (like I always do once a week) to see if I could see my friend that works there so he can tell me the deals, but he was working at AE that day... Well, I bought a pair of shoes and the girl that was ringing me was the girlfriend of my "friend" but I just had seen her on his facebook pics... Lol, I couldn't resist and I told her "You look like my friend's girlfriend!" "Do you know ...?" and she said "Yeah..." AWKWARD transaction! lol....

Anyyyywaaaaaaaays....... So I went with Johnny and Becky to this bar that we go really often (they more than I do..) (like those bar from Santiago that you always go and 80% of the time is the same people every Monday...)... I was super cute cuz Johnny did my hair! So I was dancing with this gay guy all night and then when I was going to the bathroom I saw this guy from Canada that I met online but not in person but I recognized him and it was super mega weird cuz I had never met him in person and we were both "Omg, wtf!!!??".. I totally forgot about the gay guy, cuz I was drunk and shocked, so I guess he found another dancing partner, lol then I was dancing with Canada guy for the rest of the night, he was so funny, like from a movie lol, I was having tons of fun until he grabbed my hand and took me to the photo booth and I was like "ohh but I don't have cash for pics!" but actually he tried to kiss me! When I saw his face getting closer to mine, I was so disgusted that I had to cover my mouth with my hands to stop the vomit from coming out then I ran to the bathroom to continue with the process, lol then I was hiding in there for like ten minutes until I thought he disappeared... I was so freaked out... Wow that night was very bizarre... Then the cherry on the top was that I didn't know where Becky was and Johnny had no cellphone and my cellphone was dead... So imagine that mess... Ughh Delete this Monday night please.... That's why I prefer to dance with the gay guys cuz there is no 2nd intentions...

Seriously, I don't understand guys in this country, If you are nice and cool 98% of the time they think you want something with them... Hell no... What about friendship? Lol...

Thursday I decided to talk to David again cuz I think he is an idiot and I had to tell him...


Then Friday (hahaha I'm not sure If I should tell this story...) I was on facebook (as usual..) and I was talking to ... (Pacsun's girl boyfriend) and he said "Oh we should hang out..." and I said "Oh ok sure, when?" and he said "mmm... now?" (it was like 11:30pm) I was like "...hmmm....well, ok..... I guess..." "Where are we going..??" and he said "I not sure where can we go at this time..." and he is a minor... I suggested the beach but of course! I would make any excuse to go to the beach at night cuz I just love it! That's the only place that the devil or the most disgusting person could be next to me and it wouldn't make a difference cuz I feel so peaceful and nice and connected to infinity, sky, moon, stars and the earth at the same time that I really have no words to explain how calm I feel and how much I enjoy it... Alone or with company I always take my cosmic energy from the beach at night, even the drive to it I love it... Don't know why...
Lol, anyways... Where was I? Ahh yeah, so when he got home it was almost like 1:00am and he said that he was too tired to drive to the beach (Bummer!) so we were driving around talking shit and making the most ridonculous lame jokes and some cool stories... Well, then we decided to take a walk (like at 3am!!!) and we were walking and talking, he was telling me he broke up with the Pacsun girl, and I was telling him about all my frustrated relationships when suddenly a huge dog starts barking, I almost had a heart attack... Lol... Obviously, we walked back to the car... The air was getting kinda weird and then he said that he liked me since the first time he saw me in the meetings (which I don't remember seen him before except that last meeting that I added him on facebook to post him some info...) and blah blah blah... I felt so bad cuz I don't notice people all the time and then one day they talk to me and I find them so cool and interesting and I feel I was wasting time and that I could have been enjoying conversations and exchanging ideas since a long time ago (I'm speaking in general...)... Anyways, it got really late so we went back to our houses. I was supposed to get up early to go to the wine and food festival early with the people from CS and then go to work...

The week is not over yet, MORE CRAZINESS to come... I think the real jokes of life started this day next...

It was Saturday and obviously when I got up it was almost time to go to work so it was too late to go to the Food and wine fest... While I was getting ready to go to work I received an email from an old perv from cs that was visiting here from England, lol (that's what I thought with that pic he has...) Inviting me to the concert that was after the fest... The bands that were going to play are horrible for me but I said to myself "why not? I'm bored so I'll get out of my cave do something different and go socialize with different people..." But then I was ugghh right, I dont have a car anymore... But he offered to pick me up....

I invited my other young friend to the concert so we could continue talking but he told me he couldnt even go to work cuz he was sick, so was not going... (I think that was the best thing that could had happend...)

Anyways, they went pick me up at work but the new manager took so long to finish closing the store that I got out super late... All that time we were communicating by texts so I never heard his voice until I saw him... Oh my gee, when I saw Damien, I was so Impressed because he looked reaaaaaaaally different from the pictures of his cs profile, and he was tall (he looks short on the pics and everybody knows how I feel about short guys..). They were so dressed up and I looked like a crazy person cuz I slept like 4 hours, was working all day, and I was going to a concert!!! hahaha
Even though I was understanding 35% of what he was saying I thought his accent was cute and funny (I forgot people from England had an accent)... Lol, I felt really bad cuz he had to repeat everything like 7 times and sometimes even his host had to translate cuz I was not getting it, so frustrating and funny, lol... hehehe we got to downtown and the concert was over!!!! Lol, we met other cs girl and we decided to go to Ibar... While walking to the bar the age conversation came up, hahaha I really thought he was like 30 something and I was actually older than him! I didn't believe him anyways so I told him to show me his ID, and he said he forgot it, obviously I thought he was joking... Anyways we finally got to the bar, we made the line, everybody was in except Damien cuz he really forgot his ID! Geez! Really?
We went to get his ID to UCF area, that is in the other part of town... I met his brother (minor, that also looks better in person, lol...). We decided to go to a bar close to UCF.. Wow that place was huge and crazy...

Ok ok okok to make the story shorter... We didn't stop talking and dancing all night long... We felt so connected like if we met each other at least months ago, we were so impressed with each other and it was so amazingly weird, like I've never met anyone in my life before... To make the story even shorter (cuz even me, I'm getting bored of writing) I thought it was love at first sight, but everything was an illusion, we went crazy for 4 days, we got crazy for each other, like never happened to me before, we made stupid ideas/plans for like 2 weeks, now he went back home, back to reality... and all the illusions/dreams/feelings are gone too... But it was amazing while it last...

I was so destroyed with David and Kenny that I forgot I could feel nice stuff again for another guy... Pero lo que rapido llega rapido se va... And it was just like that, amazingly intense (like me =p) beautiful and fleeting... BUT like the say, nothing is forever, I guess...

I believe that some people come to our lives at a certain time for some reason, even if they stay or go, they had a mission in your life at that moment... Maybe I'm not correct but I think I already know what Damien's purpose on my life was... And I think I should be thankful to God and the universe cuz at the beginning I was in denial and complaining that life is crazy and unfair and how sad I was and blah blah blah BUT now that I thought about it I have a different view and I learned... So life goes on, I'm not sad (unless i'm bullshitting myself..) and I don't even feel the pain of the others two... It's like if I have new eyes.....

Ok that's enough for tonight, and I still even haven't mention the reason for which I started to write on my blog again, lol... Maybe later....